cqmorrell

Existential crap?
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    So, as I sit with a blank sheet of paper in front of me like literally hundreds of times before, I mull over things. Come September, I'll have regularly posted my drawings (some good, the overwhelming majority "not bad") to DA for ten years. A decade. Christ, where has the time gone?

Several things have been on my mind as of late:

 - Art block is something I wish upon nobody, not even enemies.

 - I draw, I scan, I upload. This would normally be considered the sort of activity an artist does, but I do not feel like a "real" artist like my acquaintances, nor do I feel like I actually belong in this "community". This train of thought comes and goes with alarming regularity.

 - The rise of cringe showcase media, and the statistical possibility that my drawings and/or posts in general will be featured in said media. Paranoia sure is fun, isn't it?

 - The dilemma of finding and conversing with contemporaries and acquaintances, mainly through DA, and facing the possibility that if I ever stop drawing that the aforementioned people will leave. Being alone is my greatest fear, which I have been trying to stave off with ever-diminishing success.

 - Unsolicited contact with individuals who compliment my anthro/furry/whatever works, then proceed to write a laundry list of fetish requests (specifically free requests, not commissions) completely unrelated to what I draw. What. Why.

- Why DA continues to allow poorly drawn pedophilic "art", and the accompanying broken record roleplay comments, baffles me. The fantasy of luring children to your apartment to sniff their toes is probably the most flag-raising of these.

- On the subject of ... that, finding a college acquaintance from years past had been in prison for the past five years for possession of CP. I hold no sympathy for the man.

    Yeah, I said journals and status posts seemed redundant, but this long winded rambling would have been too long for a status post. CQ, hypocrite? Naaah. *shot* For those who haven't left, thank you.

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